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“The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be”

“Welcome every morning with a smile. Look on the new day as another special gift from your Creator, another golden opportunity to complete what you were unable to finish yesterday. Be a self-starter. Let your first hour set the theme of success and positive action that is certain to echo through your entire day. Today will never happen again. Don't waste it with a false start or no start at all. You were not born to fail.”

“Whenever you make a mistake or get knocked down by life, don't look back at it too long. Mistakes are life's way of teaching you. Your capacity for occasional blunders is inseparable from your capacity to reach your goals. No one wins them all, and your failures, when they happen, are just part of your growth. Shake off your blunders. How will you know your limits without an occasional failure? Never quit. Your turn will come.”

quotes by: O.Mandino,M.Pagna,& G.Anderson

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Maybe, It's All About Me After All....
Posted:Feb 8, 2018 7:01 am

Most people think that single women like me are very picky and are reluctant to be in a relationship again because the prospective men in question are not good enough or below the expected standards required. After all these years, 19 years as a matter of fact, of not having any romantic relationship, I came to realize that I have some fears due to my own inabilities, and fall-outs and my own sub-qualities as well. After all, I am not perfect. What I meant is, I've been afraid that I am not also able to meet the "usual" expectations of men from their partner as well. I know that I am not good (or inexperienced) and am not willing to do unconventional intimate acts in bedroom, and that makes me feel not confident. For that reason, when I meet someone who has most of the qualities I look for, but appears still has a good appetite in bed, then I back off....Now, you know more, as to WHY...So, this Valentine's Day? Zero again...
Courtship And Rejection Nowadays
Posted:Jan 16, 2018 6:41 am

Where was I all these years? Am I stuck during the days when courtship was about men really making efforts to win the hearts of the apple of their eyes? When men still say " I LOVE YOU", and when men still wait a long time for women to say " I LOVE YOU TOO" ? Now, even the older men just give you hints, they give you flowers, gifts, or dine and wine with you, but that's about it.!!! Everything else is presumptive, and honestly?... I do not like it!... Part of the presumption is that you will not entertain others, even if there is no real score between the two of you.....Hmmmm?... Double I do not like it! .....And so, early on, I tell the guy, that I would like to remain friends with him, and I like us to be "that", and if that is not okay with him, he is free to go. Only then, I realized that the intention is not deep or serious. Or maybe things are really way different now. Maybe my expectations are still high, and the men move on faster....Still, I will not bend, just because...
Sorry, Not Yet....:(
Posted:Dec 30, 2017 7:13 am

And I thought I was ready.....I was wrong! He is lovable, and I like him as a friend, but I do not feel strong about having or starting a relationship with him..I need more time to get to know him. I have seen his good sides, and he really has the tendency to spoil me, but I have seen how he can get frustrated as well. I think he knew that I am not really into him..He felt it. I am not ready for any commitment in a relationship..19 long years of no man in my life, and I cannot imagine myself readjusting again to a very stressful condition where expectations, limitations, and possible control or loss of freedom can happen...But, I am still working on it...I am not done yet...Just not the right time...or maybe not the right person...
Warm My Heart.....
Posted:Dec 3, 2017 6:36 am

It is not going to be easy, I know...But, small steps had been taken...very small, as a matter of fact. It takes a strong force to break the boulder that hardened and glacier that enveloped my heart for a very long time. Please be patient...Be very patient. I cannot promise you that it is going to be fast and easy, but just give me time. It is like rising from the death....Please help me live again....
The Wake Up Call ......Lesson Learned, the Hard Way
Posted:Nov 22, 2017 7:46 am

You see, it was not the first time that a friend, a very close friend at that, made a confession "after the fact"...And in as much as I want to swear, I wouldn't, but I hope it was the last... You have seen his face here before. He was a High school classmate that I always get reunited with when I visit New York-New Jersey. I have not seen him for 2 years , and as I texted him about my plans to visit NYC again before the end of the year, he sent me a "sad face emoticon" What was that all about? "I wish I can see you without my GF getting jealous!" ...I knew that a few months ago, he was tagged by someone from FB and of course I saw that they were close enough to think that they were a couple, but that was just that. No Big deal! I was happy for them. And I asked him why would I be a threat to her? As shy as he is (or so, I thought he was), he admitted to me that the GF knows he had a huge crush on me.. I'm like-----What the ____!!!! , she knew something I wasn't even formally told, even though I felt it several times, and I was just waiting, and waiting, and waiting to be told!!!!!......Grrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!! exactly my feeling after the revelation.... I was stunned!!! And so, to get even with him, I reciprocated his boldness and honesty by telling him, " Well, too bad, had you told me right away, the feeling was mutual." There was a pause, I guess he was just as stunned as I was....We were very good at hiding our feelings and we are both very conservative....Hayz! Anyway, to make him feel better, I told him that we will remain very good friends no matter what, and if anything good that came out of the revelation; now, we both already know how we felt for each other, and life goes on...We are NOT breaking someone's heart just because.....Lesson learned...
Taking A Risk With You....Using Small Steps...
Posted:Nov 20, 2017 7:33 am


I know you are not a member here, and I know you don't even have any idea that I will be blogging about you. But just so you know (maybe in the future, I will show this blog to you) that I am taking a risk with you...step by step...Baby steps as a matter of fact. Please bear with me, because it is not going to be easy. You know very little about me, as I know very little about you, but we are going to take this new journey together, one step at a time, one day at a time...And wherever it takes us ( I hope not to the dead end), we will continue to be together, our hands clasped, and never let go....
Taking the Road Less Traveled....
Posted:Nov 8, 2017 6:20 am

Just feeling metaphoric today. 8 days off almost over. I’m glad I spent some time reflecting on my past, my present, and how I perceive my future. I remember the writer in me...the gift that God gave me to express my thoughts on anything at any given time. One doesn’t have to be a professional journalist to be expressive. Writing used to be my passion during my youth.
I came across this image with a verse by Robert Frost : “The Road Not Taken”, and suddenly I had several flashbacks. Literally, I love traveling, and as you noticed, I visited places many times because I am familiar with them. Then, it dawned on me that I’ve been doing the same thing in my personal life. I’ve been so scared to try new things, meet new people, and I am stuck! What have I done to my life? I confined it, restricted it, over-protected it, encapsulated it to the point of creating my own world named; “Me, I, and Myself”, not that type of narcissism , but a world full of limitations. But that is about to change.....Soon!
From now on, I will gradually take the Road Less Traveled. I will explore its un-familiarities and will blend with the unknown. I’ve ignored that road for decades because I was afraid where it will lead me, and the dangers it will cause me along the way. But I also missed the chance to see its beauty, and the promise of a better life. The question is: Is there a guarantee? The answer is No!...But I will take it. At this point in my life, I endured all types of physical and emotional anguish. The past experiences did not kill me, but only made me stronger. I will take this Road Less Traveled, even if it will lead me to a Dead End.......
It's Beginning to Look A Lot Like Christimas....
Posted:Nov 5, 2017 1:01 pm

In the obscure town of Bethlehem in the desolate province of Judea in the great empire of Rome, a baby was born in about 4 B.C. to a young woman named Mary and her fiance, Joseph. The child's mother, Mary was a young virgin who had conceived by the power of the Holy Spirit. Joseph was a carpenter and a man of great integrity. When Joseph found out that Mary was pregnant prior to their marriage, he decided quietly to break the engagement. In a dream he was told by an angel that the child was from God and that he should proceed with the marriage.
Taken from HappyWinkdotOrg site
Mary's baby was born at night in the stable. Mary and Joseph named him Jesus. There was no cradle for him, so they wrapped him in strips of cloth and he slept in a manger. Though there is controversy on the real date of Jesus birth, but world over people celebrate Jesus's birthday on 25th December every year.
The night when Jesus was born, some shepherds were looking after their sheep on the hills when suddenly an angel appeared. The shepherds were terrified, but the angel said, "I bring good news. God's Savior has been born tonight. You will find the baby lying in a manger". Soon the shepherds arrived at the stable in Bethlehem - Jesus birth place, to see the baby and told Mary and Joseph about the angel's message. She knew this was a very special baby.
The gifts the wise men, or Magi, brought to Jesus were of such value in the ancient world that a poor family would have considered them treasures. Gold, of course, continues to be a consistently valuable commodity. The practical use of myrrh and frankincense, processed from aromatic plants are used to make perfumes, incense, and other scented products. Frankincense was sometimes used for religious ceremonies and myrrh for funerals, so some have seen symbolic meanings in the gifts.
Christmas hath a darkness;
Brighter than the blazing noon;
Christmas hath a chillness
Warmer than the heat of June,
Christmas hath a beauty
Lovelier than the world can show:
for Christmas bringeth Jesus,
Brought for us so low

Wishing the FIlipinoFriendFinder Members the joys and blessings of the holiday season. May we all remember the solemn meaning of the birth of Jesus Christ while we rejoice at the coming of our savior.
Heart Breaker!
Posted:Nov 4, 2017 9:01 am

Yes, there were times, my suitors labeled me as a "Teaser", meaning, they believed I lured them into getting attracted to me, made them believe that they had a chance...only to be rejected in the end. I am not sure where and how they got that idea. They didn't understand that I am way different from the ordinary woman. I am my unique self. As a matter of fact, until this time, the few men who are interested in me still feel the same way. I do not have to explain myself to them. Just because I am being nice to them doesn't mean that I am into them...that I am desperate to be in a relationship. Just because I am already in my golden years doesn't mean I had truly ran out of time, and will take whoever comes and give in, all the way....Nahhhhhh! I want to fall in love, the way I know how...That is, to use both my mind and heart...Not just one. It was and never will be my intention to break one's heart. And for the record, I never lured or seduce anyone.
I Started Taking A Chance, Even Though It is Risky....
Posted:Nov 2, 2017 7:33 am


Well, what can I say? Lately, I started opening my doors to some romance. I am not really tickled pink about it, coz I think I am too old for that., But honestly, I went back to my old, shy, nervous self, just talking to a man..But the good thing is, I overcame my numbness. Slowly, I can feel a little interest once again. What do I expect at this age and time in my life? I am in my late 50's. The guy is in the early 60's. I have met him 3 times with common friends. Other than his name, I didn't know anything about him the previous meetings. I decided to have a one on one talk with him, and finally, we both opened up. I told him, I am very transparent, and honesty is what makes me trust the person as we get to know each other. It doesn't matter if the truth is on the negative side. It is better to know the bad early on and be able to accept it. Nothing is spectacular about this guy. He is ordinary, and had been dumped a couple of times...Red Flag!...This time, I am trying hard not to be judgemental. I am just trying to get to know him, and if in the process, we be come a couple, I can almost guarantee him and you, that there will be no marriage...During my younger years, I always believed in marriage as a binding connection between a man and a woman. I was wrong! and I do not want to make another mistake. It is easier to be in a relationship where no one feels choked. We just have to enjoy each other's company and make the most of what life has to offer us as we go along....But, we are NOT there yet....I will keep you posted...
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