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"Drawn from the Heart and Mind"
- to capture what is unsullied and ethereal and
- to convey in a manner filled with mirth and awe." ~ fantasiamore

We all have our leisures in life. In fact, we have all the time for it, when we have finally retired from work. When I retired, I would often get online and read stories and poems, done in the blogs. I took some inspirations from it, so I started my own writings, thinking that I can also do it in an amateur way and later on progress in time, to become this professional writer that I have had begun to dream about.

I put myself busy trying out my writing skills, at the same time keeping my mind active and thinking. It is said senility or dementia during one's senior years gets regressive when the mind is always kept at work. Initially, I started doing poems as inspired by my then existing loving relationship. What better and more impulse can drive one to write beautifully, as when someone is in love. Lines would flow as the feelings would show. Hence, I was able to compile as many verses, that somehow gave descriptions and pictured how my feelings were, at the time the verses were written. Somehow I was writing a journal of my everyday encounters, through the poems I was creating.

At first it was difficult to put the words and lines into rhymes. But as I caught the pace to do it right, it came easy and fun to do. The next chapter of my writing involved this photo writing adaptation that I tried doing. I would pick a photo online or from someone else's photography. I'd capture thoughts and ideas I found appropriate to describe said photo. Then put or develop these thoughts and ideas, as concrete, either by creating storylines from it or a poem out of it. I developed one short story but I found out prose or narrative is more difficult to produce than verses that can capture in a few words, most of what I think and would like to convey.

I find verse writing, a more challenging feat because situations can vary, from how the reader would perceive your message or thoughts in that poetry. Interpretations can variate from how you would have wanted your thoughts conveyed as how your reader will have perceived it.

Posted:Jan 17, 2018 1:23 am

Till death do you part. But they say when the going gets rough, time to get out. Oops! That doesn't work when you've had said your marriage vows. Unless your country allows divorce or that annulment can easily be obtained, you are stuck forever in your wedded words, I do. What to do? When you get lost in your direction, that's infidelity. Going left because it's not right, you are a sinner. Get a gun and shoot the obstacle to being liberated, why that's murder. So again you are stuck.

What values to pursue, that which the church and law advocates or that which your heart dictates? Do you really have a choice? Again, I say it's a stalemate. Oust the queen, the king is ready. Oust your king, the queen assumes. Where's the balance?

In this world, we are prisoners to ourselves. We know what we want, we get what we want. In the end you ask, is this really what we want? There's contentment only because nothing more can be done. Or is it, am tired and done, so be it.
Posted:Jan 14, 2018 3:42 pm

Sadly, standard members can't connect when their interests get perked up. So what to do to get their itching connection? Some profiles do leave their cues on how to reach them but one should be alert enough to pick them right. Others are simply dying to get into Instant Messenger but alas, their servers would not allow them to get in. Now, there is the chat room here, where a community of members, both gold and standard, can get to talk rather chat with one another. Just be careful because one gets to meet weirdos out to get fun out of the other. This is definitely another FRUSTRATION. But not all would end badly, as there are some real peepz in there. How to distinguish? Oh! It would take a lot of patience to discern one. You get them good and also you get them bad.

I don't indulge in the chat room, neither on instant messenger, so there ain't success now finding me, unless you can take a good clue from this. The google is one where probably you start to type this backwards enaj.zednanref. Getting it right and seeing how successful you do it, I guess I should owe you a good reply. So the best of luck to you then. But if you don't read blogs, then too bad. If you do, then you can do some good exchanges with me. Voila! That should be a good connection. First, let me caution you, am not playing games here. Only legit guys who want to become a good friend or more. To whom, I will say be my guest or probably I should spell that as "guess."
Posted:Jan 8, 2018 12:55 pm

Today, during the dawn celebration and festivities for Jesus the Black Nazarene, hundred thousands devotees would have been converging and flocking, at the Basilica of the Black Nazarene, located at the District of Quiaipo, in the City of Manila. The yearly event draws thousands of Catholic, who have been seriously worshiping and following the Black statue image of Jesus. Why? Because it is believed that plentiful miraculous acts are attributed to it and that continued intercessions through prayers are being lodged of what could be impossible, by its believers.

The Black Nazarene statue is taken out from the Basilica, for a few days before its feast day on January 9. It gets enthroned at the Luneta Grandstand to receive visits and be given worship rites. The train of visitors kissing and wiping the feet of the Black Nazarene statue can be described as phenomenal. More so during the processional rite, involving its travel back to the Basilica, where it attracts, a stupendous throng of devotees, coming from all walks of life and incredibly sacrificing physically during the procession.

With all these circumstances, one can only wonder, if the followers can indeed be called devotees? Perhaps, fanatics, too? What could be the difference if I may ask you?
Posted:Jan 4, 2018 2:58 am

True love and being heartbroken about it is such a happy and painful emotional bearing. That's some truth no one will probably refute. The negative effect is treading cautiously if there is a next time. Greater apprehension and the fear of risking again becomes embedded in the heart and mind. It will not be easy to trust and give love away again. How strongly can one feel positive about the matter? Here's a good advice.

Posted:Dec 31, 2017 5:37 pm

A new year to me, means another stretch, another span of time, another adventure and more to bring out from this life, by way of more company from family and friends, partying and traveling.

There more moments to mark, more lessons to keep learning, more limitations and lesser expectations and wondering. All could be given at this point in time but surely surprises can still be possible.

In the realm of love, there might be or that maybe, enough of what I've gone through has been a good history. Repeating what has been and gone, is all something to look at now and nothing to search, nor look forward to. But if one day, the offer should look good, I can probably have this hesitance and rethink my position.

Keeping healthy, staying to keep up and not reaching out for the impossible, are my tenets for now. Physically, I cannot stop what becomes less. Ironically, I will try not to defy what is given, so I should believe I must be getting more of what is less.

Like often said growing old is a privilege not given to many. I am lucky I have another 2018 to enjoy more and keep marking my trail.

Posted:Dec 20, 2017 8:57 pm

I'm afraid
So afraid to show I care
Will he think me weak
If I tremble when I speak
What if
There's another he's thinking of
Maybe he's in love
I'd feel like a fool
Life can be so cruel
I don't know what to do
I've been there
With my heart out in my hand
But what you must understand
You can't let the chance
To love him pass you by
Tell him
Tell him that the sun and moon
Rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper
Tender words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself
Touch him (Ooh)
With the gentleness you feel inside (I feel it)
Your love can't be denied
The truth will set you free
You'll have what's meant to be
All in time you'll see
I love him (Then show him)
Of that…

This duet done by Celine Dion and Barbra Streisand reminds us of the hesitation one gets to feel, when one falls in love again. There can be so much quandary and apprehension after one already experienced a broken heart. But like what is often said..if you don't give love away, then it cannot be love...or that.... if you don't learn to love again, then you cannot know its truest meaning. But what if who you love, doesn't know you do? This is what the lyrics of this song keeps saying...tell him, you can't let the chance to love him pass you by. Show him! Reach out to him. For you my friend! Give yourself this love.

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Posted:Dec 19, 2017 4:30 pm

Indeed it is! When we have a child and choose to raise him, It can never be said accidental. Even when one says I never intended to become a parent.

I have always wondered, if becoming a parent ceases ever? Well, until one stops to breathe, perhaps. But even at that, the twilight spirit of a parent gone by, can still be felt by his child, especially during his hours of need and sadness. Often, we say, "If only Mama/Papa were alive today, s/he will be happy at the turn of events in my life.

For nine months, the mother carries a child in her womb, establishing the ties that begins parenting. When the brood finds his nest, parenting still continues. The umbilical cord, that used to connect mother and child was only cut physically,. That cutting never ended anything. The relationship between mother and child becomes eternal and cements the responsibility of parenthood. This is intact and unalterable, throughout their lives.

Posted:Dec 19, 2016 5:05 am


what joy to have when you feel love
amidst sorrows wounding your heart
having been trapped into a dungeon cove
love gives and love takes nothing's apart.

a glint in the clouds this light of hope
something to hold onto with faith you stand
nothing is known still you're there to cope
His will shall be done if that is His plan.

outrageous repugnance each passing day
no one can be blamed it's your audacity
lured in captivity loneliness is a mastered play
how long will it take before you lose your sanity.

you make your destiny will that be true for all
maybe you just succumb to what's been planned
can you really thwart what comes hitting you tall
que sera sera whatever will be love's still grand

copyright "fantasiamore" 12/19/2016
Posted:Dec 13, 2016 5:09 pm


Bitter memories from a broken love may find it difficult to stay in your heart and you believe, this broken love isn't justified to stay forever in your heart. Unless you learn to give love away again, will you not find love staying in you.
Posted:Jul 14, 2016 10:27 pm


We get onto a dating site to find someone who becomes our partner for life. Search can get futile as I have experienced. I was here since 2003, I found many potentials but on closer discovery, there were hitches and snarls that made the match non-continuing. So not one fitted the "companion for life" concept in my head. So for the past 13 years I have enjoyed being a standard member here, what did I get that I lingered on for more than a decade?

I found friendships that lasted long and have stayed to date. I had peers who I got to become close with and whose company I always enjoyed, each time we schedule a get-together. I got persons who get to listen to my stories and get updates on how I am getting along who became good supports and sound boards, whenever. One of them is someone, younger than I am, for almost two decades. Theta and I have traveled together out of town, got to exchange acquaintances with members who came home for a visit or with some foreign visitors who came to spend a few days to see the country. Even locals are worth spending our time with, in truth, when they can get to Manila.

In addition, I also got to do my blogs and express my thoughts and ideas and those that I want out of me, those I wanted directed to someone else, but will be timid saying to the person in his face.

So overall, these are my gains and no time got wasted at all with my stay here.
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